Who am I?

Who am i?
am i just another nothing?
just another person shunned,
y hopefully forgotten as you
live through your pathetic existance.
a friend? acquaintance?
you can tell me you'll love me forever,
but that's just lies
in the lovely clouded bubble
you place above my head-
mess me with in believing
i could still have some meaning in your life.
when it's clear
you don't even know.
you like knowing
I'm still there,
that I can be a friend,
yet you cut
most connections with me
as you could.
clearly there's something
you're not telling me...

-Jan 9/08